admittance

i know i will never hear from him again. i don't think i was delusional about anything that happened, because for the vast majority of our friendship or whatever you want to call it, we were constantly making sure we were on the same page. i didn't want to admit it for the past, well, month, because i was hoping in vain that one day i would be able to hear his reasoning. that maybe he was the person he said he was (or is). and that maybe, just maybe, i would understand. but, to no avail. again, i'll never apologize for caring about someone or actually being there for them. oh well, as my best friend said "there are plenty of fish in the sea. just stop catching the diseased ones. you need a fucking swordfish".